right now

 

well, it's official. I am one of the worst people on the world. I'm not anti - vaccine, nor pro - vaccine. I just want more information. To be so arrogant to be informed. The saddest thing is the amount of information I have been sent about so many points of view. Some saying get vaccinated but be careful because that is no guarantee. The amount of cases fully vaccinated but still getting the virus

20 years of Afghanistan. What was that all about? I don't want death to America, they are doing a good enough job of that on their own.

The climate crisis is real. So what are we collectively going to do about it? Keep the same mindset? Scotty from marketing is so useless and exhausting. He really loves statements about confidentiality to give him the chance to say and do nothing.

Businesses locally have closed up even before lock down. Sydney Road has felt like a Sunday for months. Today was interesting catching the tram to Coburg. So many people not wearing a mask. It makes me wonder why I bother.

who I miss

 

so let's make a list of those who I miss

Ian Dury - a wholesale celebration of funk

George Harrison - Photograph. I know it was sung by Ringo but what an amazing song 

Christopher Hitchens  - obsessed with what he would say now

George Orwell - what would he write about now?

Charlie Murphy - beyond funny just telling stories

Jon Hassell - part of me thought he would live forever

George Michael -love the solo record but look him up on Youtube - hilarious.

Bill Withers - just look up live on the BBC

Marvin Gaye - got to give it up (both parts) and sexual healing

I am sure there are more but that is enough so far

the ultimate dilemma

 

so here is the problem. I have been attending a psychologist. the one main problem is this. they ask the question how are you at the start of the session. how am I? I am having a bloody session with a psychologist! how the hell do you think I am?

but then there is the paradox. part of me thinks if there was a moment where there was a truly confronting question and I replied both candidly and honestly, then the response was wow, that is beyond mental. I would find some solace in that. It comes across as having some inherent honesty and actually addresses whatever the issue at hand.

another thing that they would never say that I would dearly love to hear is the words I guess you're screwed then. or words to that effect.

the dilemma

 today I was faced with the worst dilemma. Between hoping for luck to come any way to anyone and bureaucratic nonsense .It happened with my sister and a visit to the supermarket. Four days ago, where she was identified in a virus hot zone and a supermarket. That she took so long to get tested and subjected to federal nonsense just added insult to injury. The worst injury is all we can hope for is luck that this thing will cease. This is exhausting and makes no sense, without going into details but especially after parliament question time. Just get a perspective on this damn thing. There was a place I visited once and there was one infectious place in it. The Fairfield Infectious Diseases Hospital. Wasn't it once purpose built? Isn't it still upstanding? Can it still function in some way? Give us a break.

tram

 

so yesterday I was on the tram and of the 20 odd people who were on, 3 were wearing masks. The paradox of this is I left my mask at home so I had to go back to get it. I completely forgot I had a bag of masks in my bag. My thought process was 1. I hate wearing these things. 2. If all of you couldn't be bothered, why should I? Yet I persist. For the common good.

On the way home there is still a bunch of people not wearing masks so I offer one to someone. He barks at me where the fuck do you get off? I said, Moreland Road. Next stop some inspectors get on and he gets a $200 fine. I was giving him a mask for nothing. 

Last week I was annoyed by all this and there was a girl not wearing a mask. I gave her the look of death. She asked if I wanted to sit down. No, I said I wanted her to wear a mask. The driver berated me and said you need to treat fellow passengers with respect.

Well, where's my respect? Everyone must wear a mask.

define a mess

 it ain't a mess, but it'll do until the mess gets here. This guy was a guy. He's dead. The other guy was in charge. He killed him.

tell me about the factions. Those who will rise up. Make this a mess beyond belief. Other people will rise up, then insanity will reign.

look at this mad asshole on this guy's neck. How is that O.K?

I think just one more person to die at the hands of an officer like this and it will be on for young and old.

the solution

now this is not a solution. This is not even a suggestion. This is based on a dream where everything made sense to me. I am on the tram and, in the dream, half the commuters were not wearing masks. So my response was to shoot them in the ass.

keep in mind, I don't have a gun. My thoughts in the dream went to caliber. I have no desire to use a shot gun, that would create a huge mess. Something single shot with a low caliber or even an air rifle would be fine. It would hurt like fuck and take weeks to heal. If they still insisted on being an arrogant moron, to be fair, I could not so much turn the other cheek but use the other cheek.

this probably would be too hard for Richard Harris to take on because of his need for disregard. This is a whole new universe. Not serial killing - serial shooting in the ass.

maybe this is the greatest dilemma. Shooting with a purpose to enforce the common good.