Pulmonary Fibrosis

this is a sample of a lung infected by Pulmonary Fibrosis. Thinking about everything regarding the phenomenon of now at this moment; I hate it, but not for the reasons you may think.

so what is it?

Pulmonary Fibrosis (PF) is a type of rare lung disease that causes the tissue (interstitium) around the air sacs (alveoli) within the lungs to become thickened and scarred – this is called fibrosis. This scarring makes the lungs stiff which makes it increasingly difficult to breathe deeply. This stops the efficient delivery of oxygen into the bloodstream where it is needed to be transported to the rest of the body. There are many types of PF. Some people with PF may already have features of other associated conditions such as rheumatoid arthritis or scleroderma. Idiopathic Pulmonary Fibrosis (IPF) is a specific disease where the underlying cause is unknown. 

now I can't remember when the symptoms developed and I have not the foggiest idea as to why but one of my dearest friends has it. Forgive the tacky pun but, fuck it, I love him like breathing.

and I hate it.

the first thing I hate is when he is on the phone and he apologizes for coughing. This may be his nature based on his background and upbringing but my internal dialogue is screaming,

"Can you please not apologize!?! In the vast history of all the people who do not need to say sorry, surely you must be the number one candidate in that department!!!!"

this is the same person who, on the phone has made me laugh until I was in pain, screaming words back to him like, " You can't do this to me!!" and "Please don't do this!!" All the while laughing even harder.

the second thing I hate is parity. Sometimes I hate going out into the world and interacting with people now. Losing their shit over mundane things like hand sanitizing wipes that don't meet their exacting standards right now or just products that are out of stock; abusing unsuspecting counter staff. I want to scream the problems of someone that is doing it so hard in comparison to the menial nonsense you are bleating on about right now. Aside from being quiet, can you please get a perspective?

or just treat yourself to a big hearty bowl of shut the fuck up, with a side order of you really need to fuck off right now.